"Shot to Pieces"

If this was America
I'm sure I'd be long dead
If this was America
I'd have taken a bullet to my head.
If this was America
It's so easy to commit suicide
If this was America
I'm sure I would have died.
If this was America
I'd have blown out my brain
If this was America
I wouldn't worry about trying again.
If this was America
I'm sure I would have gone on a killing spree
If this was America
Guns would have been the end of me.
Fortunately This is England
And my thoughts stay in my head
I'm too scared of the pain of not succeeding
When I occasionally think of being dead.
I've said it before I'm not normal
But not crazy enough to be mad
I don't have a life but an existence
Which you might think rather sad.
But fortunately This IS England
And I've no guns to blow away my brain
My weapon of choice is poetry
Which I use to keep me sane.

Dulwich Poet 30th October 2017

(This one is about the ease of obtaining guns in America, and how easy it is to kill others or yourself over there as a result..)